Here is the photo of the day sent to me by a darling friend of mine:
and here is a photo of my birthday evening: one seriously broken heel, a glass of sake, (stolen - don't tell!), thoughtful gifts and a birthday cake, just for me!
I don't have too many friends, and only a handful of true friends, but wherever I go, however I feel, I know they are there. From close or afar, in words or thoughts, in silence or poetry. Always.
I have many plans for this year. After a few traumatic months, I am getting back, slowly but surely, to having control of my life. Of course the demons of the past always re-appear and make you give a tear or two on your birthday. This happy occasion which is suddenly overtaken by memories, and the soul becomes numb.
Whether I will carry on being where and how I am, or whether I want to go as far as possible and start all over, I am decided to make this 27th year the best fulfilling, the most challenging, the most daring, or simply the best, yet. One of those, or all of those. Who knows?!
So now is the waiting game, until it is time to announce the big plans. I am debating between telling the whole world so that there is no way out, no escape, and I have to do ahead with it, or whether I ought to wait until I am ready.
My head is already full of excitement, ideas, novelty, dreams, but still also fears, memories and a little panic too.
My last birthday in the UK - was it?! The debate is open.
Suggestions of 'what' and 'where' are most welcome too.
Don't panic and follow your heart... your head will follow.... every change is hard and sometimes painful because ''choisir c'est renoncer'' but it is so good to be proud of yourself when you take a decision by your own (and you aready have done that in your life so you know what it means). Make a list of your thougths and what is on your mind and it will lead you to the good decision (although i'm sure no decision is better than the other one, taking a decision is already good enough). But think it through and take your time :) good luck ;)
ReplyDeleteAvec du temps et de la patience,les feuilles de mûrier se transforment en robe de soie,proverbe chinois
ReplyDeleteThank you very much my Anonymous friends :)
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday, Marie! Wish many many smiles, sales and salute's. The waiting game is the worst game to play on your birthday.. just embrace what you have - and what you don't - and chin up! Best wishes.
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